Tuesday, January 30, 2007
Ermmm... wat a bad wk for me.. first, i got a fever which is on n off.. den a headache.. den lastly, a stiff neck which is unbearable n i haf difficulty to move my head frm rite to left.. haizzz... tis is wat happen if long time didnt get ani illness.. wen it happen to come.. ermmm.. frm one illness to many illness tt come by.. bt luckily i gt tis sickness.. at least i can stay at hm n rest.. nwaday skul is BORING.. lessons r getting frm bad to worse.. im getting lazy to go to skul.. frm the marketing projects tt nvr end to the advance excel tt is damn difficult wif all the formulars to remember.. i dun noe whether tis final semester i cn score n go to poly or nt.. or the worse i cn get to is polyclinic lh.. hehehe.. eventhough i try bt my brain is getting rusty frm all the remembering of notes.. i juz hope my parents wud understand tt somehow i dun tink i can make it to poly.. i noe all parents want the best for their children.. bt not all child is the same.. bt wat to do.. i juz haf to try my best to make my parents proud.. my parents always told me,"Selagi blh blajar, blajar.. Keje tu blh biler2.. Nnt kalo dh keje aru ingat nk blajar alek uat pe??".. wat my parents told me r true bt.. *sigh*.. i dun noe lh.. my guy also ask me tt if i cn make it to poly y must i juz let go for it.. bt.. if im still skuling i still haf to kip it as secret again abt my relationship wif my guy.. my parents will explode if they noe tt im in relationship.. bt sometime i cnt wait to haf a full time job n support my famili.. eventhough im werking part time bt i sometime didnt get to njoy tt much wif my money.. paying of my bills, transport money, duit mkn.. im left wif a little money for me to njoy to go shopping to buy wat i want.. haizzz.. if i want to ask frm my guy money oso i haf to tink tt he gt siblings to take care for.. sometime wat his father gave some money to his siblings is nt enuf for dem to eat at hm n at skul.. sometime oso wen his dad short of money he will ask money frm his siblings.. wat kind of father is he?? he cant even support his children?? sometime i wanna ask my guy what his dad do to his money n where it gone to?? bt.. its his famili matter n im juz an outsider.. i dun haf the courage to ask eventhough im his gal.. bt im juz curious.. bt.. nt onli his dad, his mum oso. she will ask frm him money.. sometime i juz wanna him to say to his mum tt he oso nid the money for himself as he left wif little money aft giving some to his siblings.. bt.. tts his mum.. wat i cn say is.."Kasi jer lh.. Yelah tu kn ur mum.." haizzz... im juz pity for him.. i juz cant wait for me oso to get his full time job.. bt sometime i juz cnt understand.. his parents r werking bt where do all their money goes to?? i noe abt his mum.. paying the rent of the hse shes staying at.. the bills.. bt as a mum.. cn she sees her son suffer by wanting to gif some money to her?? my guy is juz a young adult i cn say n oso nid some njoyment n nt stuck wif famili probs... like my mum always say to me.. eventhough theres some financial probs in my famili, my mum wun tell me until if they really tinks her children nids to noe.. nt burden dem wif the probs.. tts y i always feel tt im lucky to haf a famili like tis.. bt despite all tis, tts some probs tt i dun noe n my parents r gd at keeping it.. dey dun like me to tink abt tis n my studies will be disturbed.. its between my parents to tink.. my mum love to say tis sentence,"Kakak jgn risau.. Mk nk kakak blajar jer.. sal duit mak dgn bpk blh urus kn.." Sometimes i dun get sad wen heard wat my mum said.. tts y like i say, i cnt wait to get a full time job n support my famili n nt to burden them animore.. they suffer alot.. so tis time arnd my part as their eldest daughter is to make them happy n pay wat they had done to make their children stay healthy n get gd educations..
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Tuesday, January 30, 2007
Thursday, January 25, 2007
haizzz.. wat m i doing rite nw?? i was supposed to do my AOA assignment bt here I am update my blog.. in the first place i tot tt AOA was easy.. juz computer.. bt.. aft doing the advance excel.. fuh.. so damn difficult.. there r alot of formula to remember.. juz i tot tt this excel will be easy as my Nitec excel.. nw oso i haf a fever.. bt still coming to skul.. tot of nt coming bt juz remember tt im werking today.. been a few yrs didnt get fever.. skali kene rabak.. luckily my guy gave me his fever medicine.. so at least im okie for the time being.. juz hopefully my fever didnt last tt long.. i juz hate of having a fever.. bt skali skale kalo sakit blh lh dpt manje2 dgn my guy.. like ydae wen i was otw hm.. my temperature rose.. i was so damn cold tt eventhough i wore my sweater i still cant stand the coldness.. so.. wen he saw tt i was shivering, he hug me n hold my hand to keep me warm.. ouhhhh... isnt tt touching?? eheheheh.. nw.. im oso still cant stand the coldness as im in smart rm..
coincidently, my best fren oso going to haf a fever.. (i tink, bt i juz gave her the panadol).. ermmm... pelik2.. eventhough we r best fren sometimes haf different interest.. bt, our taste cn oways be the same.. n nw we r both sick.. no mood to make jokes.. arggghhhh.. my headache is coming bck again!! cam mls nk g keje bt.. its been 2 wks i didnt werk.. nnt no money for myself.. nnt who will be supporting me if i dun haf ani money?? haizzz... nw i noe tt werking is nt easy as i tink.. skuling is fun bt wen we r broke still we haf to werk to earn extra money even if we r sick.. we will still try our best to go to werk.. haizzz.. i cn juz imagine if onli my dad is a billionaire.. like Bill Gates.. will it be cool to haf a dad like tt.. no nid to tink abt money.. tk de duit mintak jer bpk.. hehehe.. bt.. in S'pore it difficult for tt unless we haf our own company.. haizz..
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Thursday, January 25, 2007
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
Holaaaaa!!! Sori for d late updates on "ME".. Hehehe.. Btw.. My relationship wif my guy nw so far so gd aft discussing wif him.. I felt d relieved.. Kalo tk pening kepale fikir kn ttg ni.. Kejam celik.. Kejam celik.. Tis coming 29 Jan ni we will celebrating our 9 mth anniversary... Yahooo!!!! So I juz hope d best for we both.. So.. To my PCDs.. Thx for oways advise me to b strong n give me d courage to move on even I gt d biggest probs wif HIM.. Thx also to my best fren.. Thx for d encouragement wen I had d saddest moment in my entire life..
Aiyooo!! Arnd evening today, my body suddenly feel d chill tt it gave me the signal tt I gonna haf a fever.. Been a few yrs tt I didnt catch ani fever.. Tis may b due to gt d sickness frm HIM lh ni.. Hehehe.. So.. Nw its my turn to get d most attention frm him.. Yelah.. Wen he was sick.. Fuh!! Dia nyer manja bkn main agi.. Mkn nk kene amek kn.. Air suam pn kene amek kn.. Biler duduk pn nk bekepit aje.. Kate nyer.. Dis sejuk lh.. Mcm2 agi lh.. So.. Nw.. Nnt kalo jmp dia.. Nk manja puas2 lh.. Hehehehe...
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Wednesday, January 24, 2007
Thursday, January 18, 2007
Holaaa guys.. Sori dh lame tk update my blog.. Bkn nye mls tp tk tau ape nk cite.. Ni skg lh aru de cite.. Oklh.. For d past wks ni de byk benda yg belaku to me.. Didnt spend time dgn my guy.. Had some misunderstanding wif him.. Kebykan nyer probs wif my guy lh.. Haizzz.. Nk break dgn dia, I still luv him.. Bt y he must do wat I dun like??!! Y must he make me cry all nite tinking of this??!! All he noes.. Saying sori bt do d same incidents again.. Since dia start bekwn dgn kwn2 dia dari lain department at his werkplace, his attitude changed.. Kte dh tk bbl sgt pt fone.. Dia ckp de duty lh.. Nk rest lah.. Mcm2 reasons lh.. Tp kalo g clubbing tk pnt plak.. Agi tk inform I.. Biler I called him.. Aru lh I tau where he is.. Sape yg tk sakit ati??!! After putting dwn d fone, I juz cried my heart out.. Kalo I kuar tk blang dia tau dia mengamok.. Even kalo kuar dgn famili pn nk mrh2.. Dia??!! Sumer nyer blh lh.. Kdg2 tu pikir yg kalo nk mrh2 kn dia pn tk gune.. Benda dh tejd.. Dh tk gune nk mrh2.. Prnh tu dia tanye I if his attitude had changed?? I say lh no coz I understand tt hes tired of his guard duty n nids some rest.. Tp wat makes me mad ni.. Ckp pnt.. Bt still went clubbing.. I dun noe if I've been nice to him ni kene tmpt ke tk?? I dun noe.. Im confused.. I oso dun noe if my heart still haf the strong luv towards him?? I dun noe???
I dun noe if I shud kene kn dia after wat he did towards me?? Do i will achieve anithing if I do tt?? I dun noe how long I can endure wif all tis?? I noe all relationship do haf its ups n dwns.. Bt.. I dun noe if I can survive n b patience?? Haizzz... I haf alot of question marks in my head n I oso dun haf ani ans for my own questions.. Wat shud I do n wat shud I nt do?? ARRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Thursday, January 18, 2007
